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Found a new home! July 16, 2012

For a long time I felt all blogged out, Postaday 2011 used up all my blog ideas and words and I was starting to feel like I was trying to find topics to write about and I didn’t want to pollute the web with unnecessary words, so I went quiet, left my keyboard alone (well sort of) and did some creative writing instead; but now I’m back: but I’ve found a new home over at http://clairewade.com I’d love it if you came over and checked it out!

I feel inspired again after a very long time and I’m eager to get back to blogging, maybe not every single day, Postaday was truly hardcore; but certainly once a week if not more, depending on when inspiration strikes. So if you have enjoyed what you you’ve read here, find more of it here…


Blessing 102 – Writing to release the ache in my chest April 12, 2012

I’ve set myself the challenge of writing 500 words every day, I know I’m meant to be doing Script Frenzy; but unfortunately life’s been so busy I haven’t been able to start, so I decided to stick to my novel instead. I sometimes get this ache in my chest – don’t worry nothing physically; but its like there’s a whole, empty feeling that I couldn’t shift. I thought it was some kind of emotional ache, the loss of not being  able to do all I want to because of my ME. Then I started to write again and it felt better. I’ve realised its not something missing in my life, it’s all the words and stories trapped inside. If I take the time to write, I actually feel better, so much freer and lighter, it’s magical.

The thing is I have to do it every single day. If I miss one, just one, I go back to feeling the ache again. It is the weirdest feeling and one I’m only just realising. At least now I know I can do something about it; but I wonder if anyone else feels like they have to write every single day? If it’s as important a part of their day as  say eating? Maybe I’m just nuts, all I know is that writing not only makes me happy; but it seems to be keeping me sane to. That really does sound nuts!


Blessing 99 – Wisdom in a horoscope – who’d have thought it? April 8, 2012

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“Each decision will get you where you need to be; but each choice will render a unique experience on the way.”

That was the sentence I read in my Mum’s horoscope yesterday – she’s a Gemini and not a typical one; but we always read the star signs in newspapers and magazines, in fact it’s one of the first things I turn to! I know all the “mass-produced, general, relevant to everyone” comments; but I often find they say what I need to hear at the time, or I read what I want into them. Either way I end up feeling uplifted. I’ve never read one that I liked as much as this though. I love the sentiment and it ties in with my belief that everything happens for a reason and that there are so many things that are just meant to be. When you’re going through hard times and bad things, you can’t see it, feel it or believe it; but when you’re on the other side and life is so much better, you understand that it was necessary, that you got to where you were always meant to go and are doing exactly what you’re meant to be doing. Every horrible thing in my life has led to so many better and more amazing things. I wouldn’t want to live through them again; but I wouldn’t trade the good things to take away the bad.


Blessing 97 – Calendar Girls, nude not naked. April 7, 2012

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Tonight was our third trip to the theatre in as many weeks – we didn’t plan it that way, new shows just keep coming on! We went to see Calendar Girls and it was fantastic. It had some really big names in it, including Linda Bellingham, Ruth Madoc and Lisa Riley. We’d seen the film and enjoyed it; but I hadn’t made the connection that because they strip off in the films, that they would do the same in the theatre production!

I cannot believe the bravery of the ladies in the cast, who all recreated the photographs in the film. It was really tastefully done, which sounds like a cliché; but you never saw anything more than they wanted to reveal, with the use of carefully placed props. It was so funny, the audience were in hysterics; but then could be moved to tears in a second. It was uplifting and heartbreaking in equal measures; but it was a fantastic performance and a great night out.


Blessing 93 – Meditation magic, listening to your intuition. April 2, 2012

I love meditating,  it’s something I first started when I was fifteen during my GCSEs. My whole family learnt Transcendental Meditation; but I really began to enjoy and appreciate it once I started having reiki. My reiki healer used to do guided meditations with me. She would get me to relax with my eyes closed and then describe me going somewhere. My very first meditation was swimming with dolphins, because I had dolphins on my duvet cover. I still remember how incredibly freeing it was. I wasn’t actually going anywhere; but I felt like I could do anything I wanted: swim, walk, run. My body had no limits and I loved that feeling. It was very different from how I felt the rest of the time, barely able to move, unable to walk and in a lot of pain.

Meditation, like anything, is a skill you have to practise. You have to keep doing it; but  with guided meditation it can be a lot of fun. I’ve done all sorts of things during my meditations: climbed mountains, soared through the sky, sat in temples, strolled through forests, even flown through space, among the stars.

I know there is debate about where you “go” during meditation, if you’re connecting with some higher power, meeting guides or if it’s just your ‘imagination. I don’t claim to be an expert, the scientist in me says that it’s just my imagination; but all I do know is that I have had some major emotional break throughs while I’ve been meditating. Realisations about situations and people, that I can’t imagine having during my normal daily life. I think the benefit of meditation is that it strips away the clutter of thoughts and stimulation that we receive every second of the day. It makes space to allow your intuition to speak to you and if you’re open and willing to listen, it can be the greatest guide and teacher you have.

I like using audio CD meditations because they provide a focus, a voice to keep me on track and it stops my mind from wandering, which it has a tendency to do. I love the sense of calm that descends when you really relax and you lose track of time and place.  I think it takes a certain willingness to go with the flow and let things happen; but it’s also a bit like watching a movie, you don’t know what’s going to happen, you just enjoy the show. The best part of a meditation is that you are the star!

If you’ve never meditated before I’d really recommend giving it a go. There are sites where you can get free downloads as well as some on iTunes. Or check out your local library for some great CDs. I’m not saying it will change your life; but you might be surprised just how much you get out of sitting still with your eyes shut!


Blessing 86 – Creative Community March 26, 2012

I’ve just joined a group on Facebook for people with chronic illnesses who enjoy creative activities, like arts and crafts, cake making/decorating, photography and writing.  A friend set it up and I wasn’t sure what to expect; but it’s really cool. Everybody is sharing things that they have made and done and it’s inspiring to see what incredible things people can create despite being really ill.

I always feel in awe of people who can make things, especially artistic/graphic design people. I can take things and put them together, like patchwork or even scrapbooking; but people who can start with a blank canvas (real or digital) and then turn it into a piece of art is amazing! I guess writing is the literary version of that and I would rather be a writer than an artist; but it would be lovely to be both!

I’m enjoying doing my quilt, which is nearly finished and of course all the writing I’m doing at the moment. It feels so good to be back into writing properly, not just the virtual holiday; but I’m working on a novel and planning my script too – no writing until Script Frenzy in April though.

I’m looking forward to getting more inspiration from the group and the chance to share some of my own work with them.


Blessing 84 – Born to write March 24, 2012

Today I went on my first ever script writing course and it was amazing! The tutor for the course was amazing, so relaxed and interesting, fun to listen to; but also incredibly inspiring! He made me want to write, to venture into the world of plays and to also go on more courses that he runs. He works at the UEA on their creative writing programme, which is hugely respected and has turned out some amazing (and famous) authors. I’ve thought about doing it one day; but I’m not sure it’s exactly what I’m looking for, maybe a little too large, formal and structured. I liked the fact that there were only five people on the course – there were meant to be sixteen! That would have been far too many, as we were pushed for time as it was. It had a relaxed atmosphere, where people felt able to share.

We learnt about the different types of plays and what they need to bring them to life. We even got to watch some scenes from films, to see how certain elements are used for effect. There was a chance to do some creative writing of our own, creating two characters and then having a choice of either doing a page of a screen play or a Treatment – an overview or summary of a story for a screenplay. I couldn’t believe how inspired I felt. I sat for a couple of minutes each time we were given a new exercise and then suddenly all this creativity came from somewhere and my hand could barely move fast enough to write it all down. I ended up with two new ideas for books/plays that I can’t wait to write more about.

I never really thought about script writing before and only went on this course because I was, and still am, considering doing Script Frenzy, an off-shoot of NaNoWriMo. I always assumed I had to write a novel and then see it become a film; but I love the idea of writing my own screenplay. Sometimes I can see the visual much clearer than I can the prose, so this might be an interesting path to take. I quite like the idea of writing both novels and plays. One of the ideas from today I think I’ll use for Script Frenzy if I can find the energy.

I’ve had one of the best days I’ve ever had, it was so much fun and I realised that not only do I love to write; but I love to be part of the creative process, interacting with others, sharing ideas and discussing things, the way we do in book club. I’m looking to find ways to work with the group again, especially the tutor. Whatever happens I’m going to join some kind of writing group, because I’ve realised that it’s what I love to do and it’s such an important part of who I am. I just can’t believe it’s taken this long for me to realise it.