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Long time no write! April 26, 2012

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Sorry I have been a bit quiet recently, I haven’t vanished into thin air, well not completely! I’ve been fairly overwhelmed with life – I think I may have been a bit overambitious with the number of projects I’ve taken on! Problem is there all things I really, really, really want to do! And they all have time limits on them so I have to do them now or not at all….

Mum and I went away for a long weekend to Bury, which was brilliant; but exhausting. A shock to still find that I can’t travel more than about an hour in a car without getting a symptom flare up. It was still nice to get away, even if we spent most of the time in the hotel room. We did discover an amazing vine yard – Wiken Vineyard. Now I’m not into wine; but they had an incredible farmer’s market and they did breakfasts that were out of this world!!! I had blueberry pancakes with bacon and maple syrup and hot chocolate. Wow that’s making my mouth water just remembering it…

 

Award winning hot chocolate at Wiken Vineyard. I was too hungry to wait to take a picture of my blueberry pancakes!

I took a social media break while we were away – my first in about ten years, I didn’t even look at texts! It was weird not blogging and I kept thinking of things I wanted to paste on Facebook; but it was also kind of nice to be present in the moment. It made me decide to take a break from blogging daily as I was running out of things to say – who’d have thought it?!!!

I have kept up writing though, I’ve gone back to my novel and set myself the goal to write daily which I’m loving; but writing this post has reminded me how much I also love blogging. I thought creative writing/fiction was what I needed; but I think I’ve realised I need to do both. So here’s to blogging at least once a weeek. 🙂

 

Blessing 103 – Coming out of my shell on camera April 12, 2012

I’m almost at the end of my second week on the online video course I’m doing and we had a week of doing crazy videos, smiling to the extreme, changing out tone, emphasising out words, being someone else and finally being us again. It was hard at first, I felt really self-conscious; but it got easier and I actually had fun messing around in front of the camera. Something that I never, ever would have imagined a few weeks ago!

I’m actually discovering that I can relax more when I’m doing a video and let more of my personality, the real me, out in this safe, quiet environment. The side that normally only my family and sometimes my friends see. The quirky, goofy, silly me that I never really felt I should show others in case they might judge me. Turns out that I don’t need to worry. The ladies in the group have all been so encouraging and supportive that it just feels natural and very safe to let them see me. It actually feels really good to not be hiding or pretending. I have a feeling that this is going to change me in more ways than I ever imagined, or maybe not change, perhaps release is a better word.

 

Blessing 92 – Good family, good food, good times. April 1, 2012

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Today I had a birthday meal at a local Chinese buffet – my favourite food ever! It’s a really great restaurant with a good atmosphere and even better food, although why is it you can have a Chinese meal and be hungry by the time you get home?

The meal was meant to be with family and friends; but unfortunately all my friends cancelled because of illness, so it was just me, Mum, my brother Simon and his girlfriend Fee. We had a really lovely time. I don’t get to see them very much, so it was great to be able to relax, chat and eat!

I even got a present! They got me a fab Yankee candle and holder, it’s really me and I totally love it. It was the perfect end to my birthday weekend and I know it must have been a good one because I’m sad it’s over and not looking forward to the week starting. I feel hugely blessed and just want this weekend to last forever!

 

Blessing 90 – The perfect birthday. March 30, 2012

I wasn’t sure what to expect from my birthday this year – I’m a huge fan of birthdays in general, normally getting excited about mine as soon as Christmas is over. I’ve been known to count down the days from 1st January; but normally from the beginning of March. This year I’ve been so busy that I got distracted and it sorted of snuck up on me.

I had planned two different things to do on my birthday; but both fell through, so I decided not to make any set plans, just to go with the flow and see what happens. I can say whole heartedly and very happily that the day has been perfect!

Mum made me pancakes with ice cream for my breakfast – it’s a tradition! I had some of the new Ben + Jerry’s core ice creams – if you haven’t tried them then you have to! They do two flavours of ice cream with a core down the centre, like caramel or chocolate ganache, they are so yummy!

I’m going on a cupcake decorating course tomorrow, so we had to go to a cake shop to buy all the bits – that was a scarily expensive shopping spree; but at least I’ll be able to use most of the bits again as they were mainly sugar craft tools. I’m really excited as I’ve always wanted to learn sugar craft.

Then we had lunch at one of my favourite places – Taste of Oz, an Australian themed restaurant who do amazing food! I did knock over the vinegar bottle which shattered on their tiled floor. I felt embarrassed; but not as mortified as I would have once.

We then came back via Waitrose to get a birthday cake (Butterscotch) and some bits for tea. I got lots of cupcake china and themed presents from Mum, so we had decided to have a tea party. We bought some salad, a tomato and garlic pizza bread and some other picnic style bits. It was so good!

I got lots of lovely messages on Facebook – 57 people!!! – some texts and I talked to my brother, aunt and friend Grace, who sang to me on my answer machine. It was fabulous! We then watched Letters to Juliet which was a classic RomCom; but was really sweet.

I feel very luck and very spoilt and I don’t mind too much that I’m now a year older! I am truly blessed.

 

Blessing 87 – Having the courage to share my writing March 27, 2012

For the first time I have actually let somebody read some of my stories. Admittedly it was only my Mum; but it was a huge step! I hadn’t realised quite how big until I was sitting nervously waiting for her to read the first chapter of the novel I’m working on. I felt sick with nerves.It was silly really, she’s read my other work, like my blog and my virtual holidays; but I’ve never shown anyone my fiction work.

Of course she was lovely and positive; but it really boosted my confidence. She’s a teacher, so I know she’d have had to say something if she didn’t like it. I also know it will be much scarier showing it to strangers; but this was a really important first step!

I’m having so much fun writing again, I can’t really believe that I stopped after NaNoWriMo. I definitely won’t be stopping again.

 

Blessing 82 – Having someone to talk to March 22, 2012

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I think I undervalue how important it is to have someone in your life you can share anything and everything with. I have a tendency to get lost in my own head, to get caught up in the spiral of thoughts – especially when they are negative ones. Times like these I really rely on being able to talk to my Mum. She may not always understand; but she tries to and often she says either the right thing or the completely wrong thing which then makes me find my own solution. Either way it helps and I end up feeling much better, having worked through my thoughts and come out the other side.

I’m not sure I could ever live on my own, I like my space; but I know I’d get lonely. I need company and companionship, even when it’s just general chit-chat, I thrive on being with people, especially people I can completely relax and be myself with.

So today I am truly thankful that I am not alone and that I have someone who is always there for me. It makes the world feel like a much safer place.

 

Blessing 74 – The way things work out March 14, 2012

Today Mum and I were driving back through the city and I saw the sign that says “Norwich, A Fine City” which is true, it really is. It’s a lovely place to live, with beautiful countryside, close to the sea, near to London; but not too close and with a great mix of history, art, science, architecture, shops, businesses. It’s home to lots of lovely people too. Norwich really has it all and is definitely worth a visit. I

After I saw the sign, I had this sudden thought that my life would be completely different if my parents hadn’t moved here over thirty years ago. They could have gone anywhere, not just in the UK; but the world and my life would have been completely different. I would be a completely different person.

The people I’ve met, the things I’ve done, the opportunities that I have had, all came because of living where I do. Who knows what life would have been like if I had lived somewhere else, it would probably have been completely different; but that’s not to say it would be better or worse.

As if to reinforce this idea we just watched Grey’s Anatomy and it was the episode If/Then which explores this idea of what your life might be like if you made different decisions. We are both huge Grey’s fans and seeing the well-known and much-loved characters acting in completely different ways was brilliant. The best part was you could see how they would have got to that point if things had been just slightly different.

At times I think it would be cool to peep into a parallel universe – Fringe style – and see how things might be. There are even times when I get this strong sense that I’m meant to be somewhere else, not that I’ve forgotten to be somewhere; but like there’s this other life I’m meant to be living and for a short time I can feel it pressing up close to me. It’s an odd sensation.

Fortunately at the moment I feel happily grounded and pleased to be living the life I have.